I use to sit back and think to myself about how much I use to make the most dumbest ass decisions which ended up screwing up everything good I had built and accomplish in my life. I felt like there was nothing I could do to make things normal again. It got so bad I thought things would not be the same and it would take a miracle to get back to where I once were. I was almost right. BUT man, was I wrong.   When you feel like you have screwed up everything important in your life, you realize you have nothing to lose.   When you realize you have nothing to lose, you feel an almost overwhelming sense of freedom. That means you can do anything you like.   Because you really have nothing to lose.   That's exactly what happened to me...I realized I didn't have anything to lose. So I might as well be a little selfish and focus all my time and energy on becoming a better version of myself and of course loving me more-putting myself first, which meant NO MORE excuses, NO MOR